Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Changes

Well, today I believe this blog post will be a more personal close to heart one. After some searching and struggling with finding a proper church home, I believe God was testing me in where my faith lies. I think He is possibly setting me up for something and I am unsure of what and I am content with that, I just want to be where He wants me to be.

I had sent an email with a lot of my church confusions and frustrations to a dear friend and pastor who helped me realize some things and helped me see some things. I had understood and taken things the wrong way. A church is an important unit that is composed of many important parts to make it the unit that it is. This church is the church that helped me set up my Rhode Island roots, and yes even though it is going through some changes, I think it may be where I belong, even though I may not totally see eye to eye with it at the moment. I know that church got me through some really rough times for me and it was there for me. It is my Rhode Island foundation and it should be my ultimate Rhode Island "home" with all its loving supporting families and members.

I apologize for any thing I may have said to anyone that was offensive or confusing. Thank you to everyone at that church who patiently waited and lovingly prayed for me to figure this all out within myself. For my family and friends not near me, thank you for all your advice and patience as I went through this time.

For anyone that is not with God daily, I will pray for you to have a desire to seek Him more as I am praying for myself to have that desire. I realize after not reading my Bible daily and praying to God daily and talking to Him on a regular constant basis for about 2 weeks, I see the darkness in my life. I see how easily Satan tries to get a foothold in my life to discourage me and distract me from the ultimate goal of loving God and glorifying His name. God will be there for you, through every valley and mountain peak. I am not perfect and I still have my faults but that is okay, Jesus is there for me and He loves each and every one of us completely and entirely with body, soul, and mind. So my next goal is to work on falling completely and madly in love with the God that made this wonderful universe, because He will never leave me nor forsake me.

God definitely has been knocking on my door this past week, be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him! (Psalm 37:7)

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Leeta,
I am so very proud of you. You have put this in such an eloquent way. I can see where you have put great thought and huge effort to see what God is showing you. You go girl!!!

I Love You,
Mommy

Anonymous said...

Hi Leeta

What a difficult process to go through. I am so glad you are doing it now and not in your 30's or 40's. You get so much more set in your ways the older you get. You talk about knocking down walls. The very best thing is to not allow them to be built in the first place. Kudos to you my dear.Stay in touch with God and let him guide you every step of the way. Say get lost you creep satan. I deliberately left the creep lower case.

Anonymous said...

Leeta, I wish that I was as smart as you at that age. I am truly amazed how you are growing and coming into your own. Keep believing that GOD doesn't give you any more then you can't handle. As Grandpa Nagle used to say, "Keep looking up, cause he is looking down." You write the words that most people don't want to admit. I look up to you for that. You stated your true feelings and admitted your faults. I love that about you, well I love everything about you. I am so proud of you. Keep up the blogs. I love reading about you and what is going on in Rhode Island. Have a wonderful afternoon. I love you, Vicky